Chapter 174 Burden
Yan Moying was extremely surprised to hear Yun Keyou's confession. He stood there without saying a word and continued to look at Yun Keyou.
"Brother Mo Ying, you...you understand my feelings?" Yun Keyu asked.
Yan Moying knew that the person he cared about, Prince Zhaolin, loved Yun Keyou, and he also knew that he and Yin Ruchen were in love. So, although he knew that refusing immediately would hurt Yun Keyou, he had to refuse decisively, otherwise it would hurt Yun Keyou even more in the future. So he asked, "Keyou, do you understand how the prince feels about you?"
"I understand, but I only treat him as a brother! He will always be my good brother!" Yun Keyu said.
"I understand your feelings, but I only treat you as my sister. Similarly, in my heart, you will always be my good sister." Yan Moying said.
Hearing this, Yun Keyu burst into tears: "I was worried that the changes in the world five years later might make the relationship between us impossible. Now I know that before those five years even started, you had already decided that our relationship was impossible."
"Keyou..."
Yun Keyou wiped away her tears and said in a seemingly strong and willful manner: "Although in your eyes it is impossible for us to be together now, I will not give up. Even if you leave the palace, I will wait for you. If you leave for a year, I will wait for a year. If you leave for two years, I will wait for two years... After five years, you will always come back! I was originally worried that changes in the world would make our relationship impossible, but now that this kind of relationship is impossible in your eyes, I will think from another direction - perhaps changes in the world will make this impossibility possible! In any case, it is better for a person to live in hope than to be discouraged."
"Keyou, no matter now or in the future, it's impossible for us! You must not wait for me, let me leave the palace peacefully, okay?" Yan Moying's tone sounded a little resolute.
"Will my waiting become a burden to you?" Yun Keyu asked.
"Yes. I don't want you to wait for a result that will never come, and I don't want you to miss the opportunity that you should have seized for doing something meaningless. It is better for a person to live in hope than to be discouraged, but when that person finds out one day that the so-called hope he has lived in for a long time is actually destined to be shattered, that kind of disappointment will not only make people discouraged? It may make people become hopeless or even lose all hope! I don't want to see such a day in you!" Yan Moying said.
"If living in hope brings even more painful disappointment, then my previous waiting will become a burden for my entire life, right?" Yun Keyu seemed to understand.
"Of course!" Yan Moying said decisively, "Why let one person's waiting become a burden for two people?"
Yun Keyou felt as if her heart was stabbed when she heard Yan Moying speak so bluntly, but the pain made her think of something else: "Brother Moying, are you so sure about the future? Or... do you already have someone else in your heart?"
"I know that what I'm saying now will hurt you, but even if I don't say it now, I will say it later. It's only a matter of time before I hurt you. The sooner I say it, the less hurt it will be. In order to make you give up now, I must tell you the truth that I do have another person in my heart." Yan Moying said bluntly.
(End of this chapter)
