Chapter 185 Red A's Past
Everyone was surprised, they obviously haven't reacted from the state of shock, after a long time, maybe to break the silent atmosphere, Lin Xuan stood up silently and said, "That's right,,, we have entered a Misunderstanding, we all think that the heroic spirits are ancient heroes, but in fact, the Hall of Valor is an existence that travels through the past and the future. It contains not only the ancient heroic spirits, but even the heroic spirits of the future world, which are likely to be summoned by people , it’s just that it’s very difficult without the holy relic.”
Hearing Lin Xuan's words, everyone has a feeling of "six nine zero" suddenly. Will the future self go to the past and kill the past self? In this way, you can deny your behavior in this life. This operation,,, how to say?
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"Wait, you are now a heroic spirit, which means that your life should be a life of glory and glory. You should become a real hero. Why do you deny yourself?" Emiya Kiritsugu didn't understand, he looked at For the red A in front of him, he wanted to know what made his future son make such an awesome operation.
Listening to Emiya Kiritsugu's words, Red A put her eyes on Emiya Kiritsugu's face, and the father and son were already looking at each other.
"Because,,, I am just a fake hero." Red A's voice did not fluctuate at all, as if he was not telling his own story. "After experiencing the Fifth Holy Grail War, I have been training myself frankly, and I pursued the dream of becoming a "righteous partner", but soon, I fell into a desperate situation where my own strength alone was not enough to save mankind.
Ten years later, I encountered a power plant explosion, and 500 lives needed to be saved. I went, but no matter what I did, I couldn't succeed, unless a miracle happened.
At this time, the restraining force appeared, and she (it should be her, most fan works think that Alaya is a girl) said to me, "Do you want to save the lives of 500 people around here? It is impossible. Because no matter what How does history evolve? These 500 people have to die. However, if you want to save them no matter what, do you want to be a worker ant after death? In addition, signing a contract can't cure your body, only about 500 people can be changed Your life cannot be changed. Your infected body can live for another two years and die a painful death."
I agreed. After that, I changed my appearance as if possessed by an evil spirit, and saved people who could not be saved in the first place. "
When Red A said this, everyone turned their attention to Emiya Kiritsugu. At this moment, they felt that these two people were so similar, they both wanted to be partners of justice, and they were both willing to sacrifice, but ,,, This price must be very heavy.
Ignoring the eyes of these people, Hong A continued to speak quietly
"I made a contract with the "world" in front of dying people, became a hero who invoked miracles, sacrificed myself to save all living beings, and a hero was born.
But even being called a hero doesn't make a difference in what I do. But it doesn't matter, my goal is not to become a hero, but this process needs the power of a hero no matter what. In order to save a small number of forces, or for justice, even if he is powerless, he will devote himself to the battle with the awareness of death.
I am not greedy that the world can never have disputes, I just hope that at least no one will shed tears in front of me... But every time in order to save the people in front of me, many people are always hurt, and in order to save those people, more people are killed . The more people I save, the bigger my vision becomes. When I realize that there are always people who cannot be saved, I can only choose to save more people by sacrificing some people. In order to minimize the victimization, I cut off those who could not be saved with my own hands as quickly as possible. In the end not even the lives of innocent people mattered. "
When Red A said this, Emiya Kiritsugu almost stopped breathing. He seemed to see another self in Red A in front of him. It was an existence exactly like himself, but the difference was that this Red A was more powerful than himself. The more he does, the more people he kills, there must be more!
Emiya Kiritsugu is the person who understands Red A's emotions best at this moment. He has blamed himself countless times in the dark. The difference is that Emiya Kiritsugu at least has Hisau Yawu by his side, but Red A,, he but not.
I used to have friends, relatives, and lovers, but I lost them in order to save others. I became a servant of the Holy Grail. I kept killing people just to save more people. I always thought it was right. However, ,, I killed more and more people, so many that I doubted whether my actions were correct. . "Speaking of this, Red A's eyes finally changed, the emotion of Furui Wubo completely disappeared, and what was left was only the longing for that little figure in Emiya Kiritsugu's arms! At this moment, Red A finally said own wish!
"So now! I'm going to erase my past self, only in this way can I erase my existence! This life! I don't want to go on anymore! So! Get out of the way father
I....really don't want to go on. ".
