Chapter 166 I Want to Be a Dog
"If I jump, will Haruno always remember it?"
This sentence that came out of nowhere came lightly with the night breeze, making Zeshan Haruno slightly startled.
But he quickly reacted and said in a deep voice: "Even if I don't jump, I will always remember it."
The atmosphere seemed to be at a stalemate, but he didn't seem to notice it at all. He took two steps forward to Ezaki Suguha's side, shrugged and said, "Why are you asking such a strange question? We are friends, right? There is no question of whether we have forgotten each other or not. We are not strangers."
".That's true." Ezaki Suguha whispered.
"I feel like you've been inexplicably negative these past two days." Sawayama Haruno looked into the distance and asked casually, "What's the matter?"
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"Suguha has invited me to stay in such a fancy place, so I want to help out if I can."
"It's a family matter." Ezaki Suguha turned his head away and whispered, "Even if Haruno wants to help, he can't, right?"
help?
How can I help? Can Haruno stop his uncles' plan?
Even the character called "father" can only escape this responsibility by running abroad, let alone her.
"If you can't solve it, it's okay to listen."
Sawayama Haruno, who was standing aside, seemed much more nonchalant.
Looking at the brightly lit Kyoto city below, the corners of his mouth unconsciously lifted a little, and he said with a smile: "Don't look at me like this, in fact, I am surprisingly suitable to be a "trash can"."
“That’s clear.”
Ezaki Suguha nodded, his face strangely calm.
She was thinking that since the other party was so persistent, should she tell part of it?
The tall girl hesitated a little, but after all, it was related to her family affairs, and it was not easy to tell others about being arranged to go on a blind date.
As for my mother's words, it feels even more difficult to say.
The words from that day, “If I hadn’t given birth to you,” still linger in my ears.
That deep feeling of fatigue kept lingering on my body. It was different from the feeling when I was practicing kendo. This time I felt obviously more "tired" and it was more difficult to cheer up.
".Haruno, remember that being a person actually costs money."
In the end, she said something nonsensical that made people feel a little confused.
Sawayama Haruno on the side naturally turned around and stared at her in confusion.
"cost?"
"Yeah, cost." Ezaki Suguha nodded gently and said slowly, "People only remember things they think are important, and ignore things they think are unimportant, just like elementary school classmates. Can Haruno still remember everyone's names now?"
“I really don’t remember.”
Sawayama Haruno said very honestly.
He couldn't even remember all the names when he was in elementary school, let alone now.
"That's the truth. The cost is what happened between you and the other person, and what kind of feelings are left. Whether it's a good or bad mood, it will become the cost of remembering others."
"However, once there are more things to remember, you have to make a new decision to see which side costs more and is more important to you, and then pay attention to which things to remember first." Ezaki Suguha whispered.
"I probably understand."
Sawayama Haruno stroked his chin and said casually, "Indeed, compared to my college and high school classmates, the names of my junior high school classmates have become much more vague. There were a few people I played well with at the time, but now I can only remember their vague appearances, but I can't remember their names."
“So, sometimes I envy those who can always remember others.”
Jiang Qizhiye pursed her lips and said with a slightly haggard look: "It seems that no one has ever remembered me in particular."
"Really? I think Suguha is quite eye-catching, right?" Sawayama Haruno turned around, leaned against the railing and said slowly, "She's very beautiful, and has won many awards in kendo. She's also the eldest daughter of a wealthy family, extremely wealthy."
"And the most important thing is that Suguha, who has the above title, actually has scores several times worse than ordinary people."
He paused and joked, "If I were Suguha's classmate, I would definitely be deeply impressed. I would remember it for the rest of my life."
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The corners of Ezaki Suguha's mouth twitched slightly, revealing a silent smile.
After a while, she explained in a low voice: "That impression is only temporary. People come and go in the Yulong Banner arena. No one will always remember a certain person, even the champion, because there will always be the next champion, and the champion after that."
"As for being beautiful and having a wealthy family, it's the same. After they no longer have any contact with each other, they will soon forget about it. Can Haruno still remember which classmate in elementary school or junior high school was the richest?"
"I really don't remember." Sawayama Haruno said with a dry cough.
Never paid attention to it at all.
He seemed unable to convince the other party in this regard.
It’s not that he is not good at this kind of debate, but because he is the kind of person who doesn’t pay too much attention to outsiders.
If you don't even remember a classmate, there's no point in trying to help Ezaki Suguha solve her problems.
"Even if you're remembered, it doesn't mean anything, just like feelings can deteriorate and one's heart can change." Ezaki Suguha suddenly said.
"But there should be someone who can always remember another person." Her eyes gradually shifted to Zeshan Haruno's face, and she whispered as she looked at him, "It's just that my luck is too bad."
"The future is still long, so there's no need to worry too much about this kind of thing." Sawayama Haruno stared at the other person for a while and continued, "You will have at least three opportunities to make others remember you, so don't worry." He was not very good at solving this kind of psychological problem.
There was no way. If it was in his previous life when he was seventeen or eighteen years old, he could chat with the other party here for a whole night, and talk about the other party's transformation from a negative person to a sunny character. He could also come up with all kinds of big words full of life philosophy, which would guarantee to make this tall girl who likes philosophical questions obedient.
But unfortunately, his mood is no longer the same as before.
Now he pays more attention to what he has to do and what he is responsible for.
The sentimental person always feels like a poet who has seen through the world, talking big and making empty promises, and inexplicably coming up with a lot of big truths to comfort a girl's worries. It has been so long since then that he can hardly remember the age.
Alas, if the person standing in front of me feeling sad about the passing of time was Miyazawa Maki, I wouldn't have to think so much. I could just go up and cover her mouth with my mouth, and do it a few more times, and all problems would be solved.
Hey, why do I have such a strange idea?
Sawayama Haruno took a deep breath, thinking that he must have been infected by Maki after dating her.
No, no, we can’t have such “simple and crude” ideas or those that pretend to be seeing through life. It’s better for people to be pragmatic.
"what happened?"
Sawayama Haruno came back to his senses and noticed that Ezaki Suguha in front of him seemed to be thoughtful again.
"without"
"Oh--"
Zeshan Haruno didn't think much about it and said casually: "Speaking of which, if you keep standing here and looking at the scenery, you will get bored soon, right?"
"Have you had supper, Suguha? Do you want to come down and eat something with me? To be honest, I'm a little hungry after typing all day," he said with a smile.
"Midnight snack?"
Suguha Ezaki touched her belly subconsciously.
In fact, she was not very hungry, but there seemed to be no reason to refuse the other party's invitation.
And she actually has her own selfish motives.
After feeling that Haruno had reached the top of the mountain, an inexplicable selfish thought emerged in my heart.
No. It is possible that it appeared earlier.
At least I want Haruno to always remember me.
Since he was able to maintain his relationship with Maki for such a long time without fading at all, this shows that Haruno is actually the kind of person he wants to find.
——Someone who will always remember what he looks like now.
Although he had a fleeting thought before, Ezaki Suguha felt that he was still calm and would not really lose his mind and run off to seek death.
But after returning from Kyoto, facing her mother's questioning and the pressure from her uncles, she would definitely have only one way left to go, which was blind dating. By then, she would definitely be arranged by her family to live a life she didn't want at all, which would be no different from being dead.
No, it's death.
That's why I want someone to remember that I am still barely free.
If it was Haruno, he would definitely always remember it. But the prerequisite is that he must leave enough "cost price".
In fact, she had already thought about the so-called "cost price".
Rather, I had already thought it through the night before I left for Kyoto.
"Haruno."
Walking behind, Ezaki Suguha suddenly called out to Sawayama Haruno in front of him.
The latter paused and turned back in confusion.
"what happened?"
“Do you like dogs?”
"Dogs are okay. Even though I have cats at home, I don't really hate dogs." Sawayama Haruno said casually.
"Would you like dogs?"
"If I raise it myself, of course I will like it."
".Yeah?"
Suguha Esaki gave a faint smile.
The wind suddenly blew from the top of the mountain behind him, making Sawayama Haruno feel a stinging sensation in his eyes.
Such a familiar scene made him stop in his tracks. When he looked back again, what he saw was not the beautiful scenery that was white with a hint of pink without a trace of impurities.
——but something crystal clear that gradually shattered in the wind.
"Let's go."
Suguha Ezaki blinked and suddenly accelerated to the position in front of him.
"I feel a little hungry, so let's go downstairs and eat something early."
"Oh, okay."
Feeling somewhat confused, Sawayama Haruno quickened his pace.
(End of this chapter)
