Chapter 298 Crying is so ugly
Lin Wan'er looked at her quietly and silently, with tears glistening in her eyes, as if she was brewing something.
The eldest princess suddenly smiled.
"After all, we are mother and daughter, so it's not unreasonable. After tonight, just pretend you don't know me. Don't come to see me off tomorrow!"
After a long silence, Lin Wan'er suddenly asked in a choked voice.
"Have you ever betrayed Qing?"
The eldest princess fixed her eyes and stared at her for a long time, then looked away and glanced forward, replying expressionlessly.
"Does it matter now?"
Lin Wan'er said bluntly.
"If it's an injustice, I'll go and plead with His Majesty!"
Upon hearing this, the princess looked at her again in shock.
"Did you not understand a word of what I just said?"
After a moment's silence, Lin Wan'er asked again stubbornly.
"So, have you betrayed Qing Kingdom?"
"Have!"
The eldest princess answered very quickly this time, with anger in her words.
"Anything else? Ask them all at once!"
Lin Wan'er, who suffered from tear incontinence, forced herself to keep her voice steady.
"Have you ever harmed Fan Xian?"
Before she finished speaking, the princess gave another answer.
"Yes!"
After saying this in a huff, the princess looked away.
"You clearly know that she is my future husband..."
The eldest princess interrupted directly and asked with a sneer.
"Why, you come here to call me to task before I leave?"
Lin Wan'er took a deep breath and choked.
"Since you were born, you have visited me only a few times. I thought that if you had difficulties, they would be fine when you grew up.
Later, I was sent out of the palace and became seriously ill, and you never came to the Royal Villa to see me once.
When I was sickest, I always thought…”
Having said this, Lin Wan'er was crying so hard that she could hardly continue. She could only pause for a moment, adjust her mood, and then continue.
"Before you die, will you come to see me? Do you still have me as your daughter in your heart?"
The daughter's plaintive accusation touched the eldest princess's cold heart, and made her nose sore and her eyes moist.
She turned her head stubbornly to the other side. Having been tough for so many years, she didn't want to show weakness, even if the person in front of her was her daughter.
"You fought for the greater good and you didn't hesitate to attack Fan Xian because you never thought about it and you never considered my feelings at all!"
The eldest princess, who was deeply hurt by these words, looked at her daughter in disbelief. She was so angry that she stood up.
"Why should I care about your feelings? Huh?!"
Under her daughter's equally incredulous gaze, the eldest princess raised her feet and began to pace around her, looking a little crazy.
"Joy! Pain! Loneliness! Sorrow!"
The eldest princess walked around to her daughter and yelled hysterically.
"Who wouldn't have these things as long as they are alive?! But you can only feel them if you live!"
Lin Wan'er lowered her head and listened silently, letting the tears flow down her cheeks and wet her clothes.
"Lin Wan'er, I just want you to live well, I don't care about anything else!"
Hearing this, Lin Wan'er looked up at her in shock.
The eldest princess took a deep breath, calmed herself down, and slowly turned her back.
"Do you think what I did was as simple as colluding with Northern Qi and betraying Qing?"
The princess suddenly turned around and looked at her daughter and yelled again.
"Why don't I go to see you? Why do I hide as far away from you as possible? Because only in this way, when something happens, you can stay out of it! Even if I am cut into pieces, you can still live well!"
When she said the last sentence, the eldest princess' voice was trembling and hoarse, and her eyes were filled with tears.
Lin Wan'er was not moved by the eldest princess's inner confession. She was focused on her previous words and stood up.
"What else did you do?!"
"..."
The eldest princess was speechless. She spoke too much in a hurry.
The same thing happened to the child. She herself was moved by her passionate words, but the child remained indifferent.
Whose are you following?
Is the heart made of stone?
He was able to stay calm in this situation and accurately grasp the blind spots that were accidentally revealed in her words. He's amazing!
The eldest princess swallowed her saliva, quickly wiped away the ridiculous tears in her eyes, and said in a slightly flustered tone.
"Don't ask anymore! You don't need to know!"
After saying this, the princess stopped looking at him, stepped down the steps from the platform and walked slowly forward.
"In the years ahead, you live your life and treat me as a monster and just avoid me!"
Lin Wan'er followed closely.
"What about Fan Xian? I told you that I have him in my heart and that harming him is for my own good?"
The princess stopped walking upon hearing this and turned closer to her.
"If you didn't have him in your heart, I wouldn't necessarily want to take his life!"
"Why is this again?"
"As a woman, you have to rely on yourself and be able to choose the right man. Choosing the right man is crucial to the rest of your life!"
"I've chosen him!"
The eldest princess choked and raised her voice.
"For someone like Fan Xian, how can he have a good ending?"
Lin Wan'er frowned.
"What do you mean?"
The eldest princess took a deep breath, turned her back and kept comforting herself, she is her biological child, no matter how stupid she is, she is still her biological child!
When her emotions had almost calmed down, the eldest princess turned around and spoke to her daughter again.
"Why did His Majesty call him to Kyoto? To take over the inner treasury? To manage the royal finances?
Besides these? Fan Xian is now so close to the Supervisory Council, who can't see it?
Yes, many people would say that he is successful at a young age and has a bright future, but you have never thought about it!
The Crown Prince and the Second Prince are fighting, and the Inner Treasury and the Supervisory Council are at the center of the storm, and are positions that everyone is keeping a close eye on!
If Fan Xian stood up, he would be a thorn in everyone's side. In this court, there were many ferocious beasts, and Fan Xian was the bait in the trap.
The more glorious he is now, the more miserable he will be in the future! When the giant beast pounces on him, what good end can he have other than being crushed to pieces? "
Lin Wan'er was so shocked that she was speechless. In the past, she had wondered why Fan Xian was always in trouble, but now she understood.
The princess let out a breath.
"If it's just an engagement, I'll help you break it off, but you told me you have him in your heart, what can I do? If I don't kill him, will I send you to your doom?"
Lin Wan'er's eyes flickered, and no one knew what she was thinking, so she didn't respond.
Seeing this, the eldest princess thought she had heard it, so she stepped forward, touched her shoulders and arms, looked at her, and spoke softly.
"Fortunately, it's your illness, and it's finally getting better."
Exhaling a breath, the eldest princess moved closer again, helped her smooth her long hair behind her, and whispered in her ear.
"After I leave, find an excuse to cut off contact with Fan Xian. I will try to help you cancel this engagement!"
"Remember?"
The eldest princess curled her lips and looked at her daughter tenderly.
Lin Wan'er looked up at her mother and suddenly said something.
"I have him in my heart!"
The smile on the eldest princess's face froze suddenly, and the tears of emotion that had just emerged in her eyes because of the brief warmth just now were stuck in her eye sockets, and the rise and fall of her chest became more and more obvious and the amplitude became larger and larger.
It’s all in vain! This kid is really…
The eldest princess suddenly dropped her hands, turned angrily and walked towards the soft couch at the side, saying angrily.
"Then forget about him!"
Turn around and roar again!
"Just because you have him in your heart, do you have to accompany him to his death?"
After yelling, the princess sat down angrily.
Lin Wan'er asked faintly.
"Do you know what my favorite food is?"
The sudden question stunned the princess and she was unable to react.
"what?"
Lin Wan'er turned around and looked at her, asking a series of fatal questions.
"What is my favorite food? Do you know what I like most in my heart?"
"..."
No, I was talking to you about Qianmenlouzi, and you were talking to me about the hip axis, right? Why did you sneak attack me? You love to eat...
The eldest princess thought about it, but couldn't remember anything. Her mind was blank in this regard. Mainly because she had never paid attention to these things.
The guilty princess could only force herself to increase her height.
"I only know that if I survive, I am qualified to talk about love!"
Lin Wan'er smiled and spoke to herself.
"You don't know that I like to eat chicken legs, but Fan Xian knows that when he first met me, I was secretly eating chicken legs.
What I liked most in my heart was originally the starry sky, because I grew up alone, and the starry sky was the most beautiful scenery I had ever seen.
You don't know, but Fan Xian knows! I have given him the deepest loneliness in my heart.
If he knew, I would no longer be alone!
He is the one I like most in my heart now.
If he's going to die, I want to go with him!"
The eldest princess smiled bitterly and shook her head. She opened her mouth and wanted to say something to persuade her.
But when she saw her daughter's eyes full of determination, her words were stuck in her throat and she couldn't utter them.
After keeping her head down and remaining silent for a long time, the eldest princess looked at her daughter, stood up and walked towards her. She wanted to try to persuade her one last time, using the most gentle and moving tone of her life.
"Life is so long. In the future, there will be more and better things and better people waiting for you."
Lin Wan'er spoke frankly.
“If you can find someone to whom you can confide your loneliness, your life, whether long or short, will have meaning.”
The eldest princess couldn't figure it out and didn't understand.
"But you don't even have a life left, so what's the point?"
Lin Wan'er smiled.
"Didn't you just say that you stayed away from me so that I wouldn't be implicated?
Why haven't you thought about not doing anything dangerous for my sake?"
The eldest princess was silent, let go of her and walked aside.
"You chose your path, and I chose mine."
Lin Wan'er looked at her back and asked again.
"You just said that the only way to survive is to choose the right man. Then the man you choose and rely on...
It shouldn’t be father, right?
Who is he?
Who made you pay so much?"
The eldest princess' eyes flickered. She was at a loss as to what to do with her daughter's sharpness and was speechless. It was a taboo that could not be spoken of.
So, she could only remain silent.
After waiting for a long time without getting a response, Lin Wan'er did not stubbornly wait for an answer this time, because silence itself was the answer.
In other words, there really is such a man, and he is not her father. As for who he is, it doesn’t matter.
She bowed silently to her mother's back and turned to leave.
He angrily pushed aside the curtains and just as he reached the palace door, he heard the eldest princess' voice suddenly from behind.
"One last reminder, I'm leaving Beijing tomorrow, so don't come to see me off."
Lin Wan'er took a deep breath and walked out angrily.
After her daughter left, the eldest princess in the palace could no longer hold back her tears, which flowed freely down her smooth face.
There is laughter in crying and tears in laughter.
"This temper is really my daughter."
"Your tears and snot are running together. You are crying so ugly. Wipe them off."
The young man's voice suddenly sounded from behind. The eldest princess was startled, her eyes widened, and she froze in place.
Let the white handkerchief flutter in the wind and gently touch her face.
……
(End of this chapter)
