Due to some issues unrelated to this book, my mindset has somewhat collapsed, and my emotions have been significantly affected, which has already impacted my normal writing process.
I will resume updates tomorrow at 12:00 noon. After adjusting my state, I should be able to make up for the missed chapters.
I currently owe four chapters in total. I remember the debt, and I will work hard to repay it while the double monthly tickets are active.
Right now, I just want to space out for a while, get some sleep, and forget about these upsetting things.
The feeling of having one's beliefs instantly destroyed and one's faith collapsing in an instant... I have truly experienced it now, and it's quite painful. After finishing this book, I will focus on creating Xianxia fantasy stories. Science fiction is just an empty dream of youth after all. The outline and story structure for Abyss 2 have been deleted.
— Edited the next day —
Sorry for worrying you all.
The relevant documents have been recovered. I was indeed hit hard yesterday. I've never felt this way before.
Slander from peers is nothing more than literary snobbery and the noise of insects; there's no need to care about it.
Being backstabbed on the charts is just the operation of a commercial platform; there's no need to bother with it.
Awards and honors are just fleeting clouds; there's nothing to pursue.
I became weary after being active in the author community for more than a year, and subsequently declined various activities to focus on writing. I missed the Yuewen Annual Meeting twice in a row because I was feeling lazy... I should go next time.
Actually, I had a breakdown once before. On the second day of publishing 'Mixed Immortal,' I was told that the resources earned by 'Immortal Father' could not be given to 'Abyss 2.' At the time, I thought it was a small matter and that I could just continue earning resources. Being deprived of resources wasn't a big deal either. I was quite confident in the innovative theme of 'Mixed Immortal,' and the copyright had a suitable anchor—a world view similar to 'Incarnation.' There are very few works like this on the market, and if it achieves good results, it might be sold (although it's difficult to sell apocalyptic themes). But I didn't expect that two hours later, my emotions inexplicably exploded, and I spent half an hour venting at the staff of Qidian...
The last time and this time are the only two times I've had a breakdown in my many years of writing, and both are related to the Abyss series.
The essence is because the pressure of writing 'Abyss Walker' in the first place was too great.
In fact, 'Abyss Walker' reaching an average subscription of 2,700 created a huge psychological shadow for me. The process of gradually building up the average subscription also exhausted my energy to some extent.
As a result, when the platform believes that the Abyss series, which was originally created to explore the boundary between science fiction and online novels, is not science fiction, this pressure completely erupted, and I lost interest in writing for a while...
After finishing 'Senior Brother is a Celestial,' I was actually very confused. I couldn't find a suitable innovative point for Xianxia, and I didn't want to rely on old ideas, nor did I have the core drive to write or starve... In the end, I chose to pursue science fiction. In fact, our 'Mixed Immortal' book is essentially a soft science fiction with a similar science fiction world view plus a cultivation protagonist. If you cover up the protagonist, you will find that this is a superpower + mechanical civilization story.
Every book is equally important in my heart. 'Mixed Immortal' is particularly energy-consuming. The expectations and potential contained in this book can actually catch up with 'Senior Brother.'
This is not an obsession.
This is just a kind of love.
Getting back to the point, the pen name 'Yan Guizhengzhuan' has been on Qidian for 2266 days, has serialized million words, has written seven long works of different themes, has pioneered genres, has challenged science fiction, has had peaks, has fallen to the bottom, and still remains true to his original intention, adhering to inspirational creation, and still, the computer desktop can accumulate a dozen new ideas every few months.
This time, there's actually nothing much. Adults must learn to adjust themselves, and I put this matter down after an afternoon of relaxation.
It doesn't matter if they don't recognize 'Abyss Walker' as science fiction. It just means that my influence is not enough for them to take it seriously. Then I will continue to work hard in the online novel industry and have less of a literary youth complex.
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