Chapter 835 The sky is three feet high
"Wow!"
In the early morning, when Jiang Qingzhi was feeling very angry and just wanted to do that...warm up with Li Tian, the howling sound came from next door at that moment.
Whoosh!
People are gone.
Li Tian was stunned.
Then smiled bitterly.
Since they had a child, their world of two has been broken. Especially recently, whenever the couple wants to be intimate, the child always cries.
Logically there should be a wet nurse, so just leave it to her.
But Jiang Qingzhi said, don't look at the child's ignorance at the moment, in fact, he knows everything. What he needs most at the moment is not a wet nurse, but the love from his parents.
Li Tian laughed so hard that she couldn't stop. She thought her husband was talking nonsense. According to Chang, the baby was only one month old and was ignorant. Eating, drinking, defecating and urinating were all instinctive. How could he know everything?
Jiang Qingzhi said to her very seriously: "Everyone has two selves. One is the external self, which is the self that continues to grow in the experience of the world and is obsessed with desire. The other is the inner self, which is the real me. This self is the master of oneself and the real me."
Jiang Qingzhi believes that this self is the master of himself.
"Spring is here, and the little swallows are flying north with their mother..."
Jiang Qingzhi held the child in his arms, whispered softly, and kept looking at him tenderly.
In his previous life, his existence was a burden to his parents. Ever since he could remember, his parents had been in a cold war. At that time, his parents thought that he was a child who didn't understand, but he understood everything.
He just doesn't say it.
He will feel tormented, sad, lonely...
After studying, he would actively seek recognition from his classmates and even his neighbors, as well as all the recognition and affirmation from the outside world. For this reason, he studied very hard.
After an incident when he was ten years old, Jiang Qingzhi's mentality collapsed and his academic performance dropped from the top ten. He was at a loss at that time.
This confused and helpless mentality accompanied him until he graduated from college.
He didn't know why he was alive.
He was not interested in the three questions of philosophy, but he really didn't know why he was alive.
The troubles of a teenager may seem very interesting, but for Jiang Qingzhi, they are a blow from the depths of his soul.
Home doesn’t feel like home. No, it’s like there is no home.
Where to go?
My uncle is going to South America, so let’s go together!
He is like duckweed, just wanting to float there.
And then the experience in South America was more like a legend.
Jiang Qing later reflected on his youth and felt that the problems arose in his childhood.
The cold war between his parents had a huge negative impact on him. There was no love and care, only routine: Qingzhi, it’s time to eat. Qingzhi, don’t run around. Qingzhi…
It's like living with two robots.
In South America, Jiang Qingzhi's bewildered state of mind reached its peak. Riots broke out in the area, and people were shopping everywhere. My uncle said that if our small supermarket was destroyed, we would have to go home and beg for food!
Begging for food was of course a joke, but the small supermarket was the livelihood of Jiang Qingzhi and his uncle. Once it was destroyed, all their efforts in coming to South America would be in vain.
After his parents divorced, they gave Jiang Qingzhi some money every month, not much, but Jiang Qingzhi didn't want a cent.
He didn't want it and felt that accepting it would be a sign of weakness... At that time, he didn't know that he was just being angry with his parents.
If you don't want me anymore, then let's break up completely.
He saved money from living frugally in college and working two jobs, and invested all the money he saved in the small supermarket. Once the small supermarket was destroyed, Jiang Qingzhi became a real pauper.
I can't even afford a flight back home.
His whole body suddenly felt numb and he was shaking uncontrollably.
The great fear made him unable to help but rush to the attic. He knelt against the wall and pounded his head hard, again and again...
From then on, anxiety disorder became his constant companion.
It comes every few days, for several days at a time, or even a week, or ten days or half a month...
The torment made him feel like he was living a miserable life. He searched online for answers and found out that he was suffering from anxiety disorder.
He began to look for solutions, and read a lot of chicken soup, inspirational books, and books about living in the present. He also did what they said, but the results were... really useless.
Later, he started to give up. When his anxiety attack came, he would endure it. When he couldn't endure it anymore, he would run.
After taking charge of the anti-government armed forces, Jiang Qingzhi mentioned this casually during a chat when he found that one of his subordinates was a college student who had dropped out of college and majored in psychology.
The college student, holding an AK, said seriously, "Boss, this is the sequelae of the psychological trauma you suffered as a child."
Psychological trauma?
Jiang Qingzhi thought it was nonsense, but his subordinates cited a lot of evidence, gave examples, asked about the specific situation of his family when he was a child, and analyzed it...
What the hell!
The problem I have today is actually caused by something I did when I was a child?
From this, Jiang Qingzhi realized that the environment surrounding a child has a decisive impact on a person's growth and health throughout his life.
——Nine out of ten physical problems are caused by psychological problems.
That is to say, nine out of ten people who come to the hospital are patients with long-term psychological problems, but they just don't know they are sick.
Jiang Qingzhi checked a lot of information and found that what his subordinates said was correct.
How to deal with it?
At that time, he had already had problems with his stomach and intestines, so he went to the hospital for treatment, where he received the usual treatment of blowing, sterilization, and anti-inflammation... but it was all in vain.
It turns out that gastrointestinal problems are caused by psychological problems. If you want to solve the problem, you have to start from the source.
Mentality!
Jiang Qingzhi found the reason for his confused and helpless mentality.
The subordinate said seriously: Boss, you need to recuperate, leave behind everything that worries you and makes you anxious, and go and have fun.
Just as someone came from China, Jiang Qingzhi took the opportunity to return to China, preparing to retire early and lay down his roots.
But man proposes, God disposes. I didn’t expect that I would come to the Ming Dynasty.
"Husband!"
"Husband!"
"Ah!" Jiang Qingzhi was stunned.
Li Tian looked at him, covered her mouth and laughed, "Husband, go back to sleep!"
"I'm not sleepy." Jiang Qingzhi was distracted just now, holding the child and spinning around as usual. He lowered his head, and the child's big eyes were very bright, looking at him innocently.
"Ma'am." "Yes!"
"Let's not quarrel anymore."
"it is good!"
"Don't say anything disagreeable in front of the children."
"it is good!"
"Don't threaten your child, and don't kick him out of the house out of anger."
"it is good!"
"And..." Jiang Qingzhi looked up, his eyes suddenly blank.
what else?
And the child hiding in his room, hopeless and helpless...
“You need to love your children.”
"it is good!"
Li Tian felt that her husband was a little confused.
Jiang Qingzhi lowered his head, pressed his forehead against the child's, and whispered, "Your father will not let you go down that old path, you lucky boy."
After Jiang Qingzhi left, the nurse whispered, "Madam, the uncle is a little strange today."
"Oh!" Li Tian held the child and didn't care about this question.
"Looks distraught."
"That's because I didn't sleep well."
When it comes to sleep, no one in the Bo family can compare to Sun Chonglou.
In the martial arts arena, Xia Yan was exercising while sighing, saying that people get less sleep when they get old. Sun Chonglou was happy when he heard it, "Mr. Xia, I can fall asleep on the bed. I wake up by myself at the right time in the morning. When I wake up, I feel full of strength and can kill a cow with one punch."
Xia Yan said enviously: "It's great to be young."
Being young is really good. The staple food for breakfast today is steamed buns. Sun Chonglou pierces two of them with chopsticks and finishes one before eating the vegetables. Because it is cold, the vegetables are pork belly stewed with cabbage and radish, which are rich in flavor.
Sun Chonglou lowered his head, used his chopsticks to dig into the bowl that was bigger than his head, and slurped a bunch of dishes into his mouth.
……
Melt-in-the-mouth pork belly, stewed cabbage, and radish...
"Comfortable." Jiang Qingzhi squinted his eyes, enjoying the rare delicious food time.
Chew the steamed buns slowly to bring out the wheat aroma and the sweetness of carbohydrates.
"My husband eats more like an old man than Mr. Xia." Li Tian couldn't help but complain.
"Why are you in such a hurry?" Jiang Qingzhi chewed slowly. "Eating is the same as living. If you swallow the food without chewing it in a hurry, you won't know what it tastes like. That's living."
"Why not alive?" Li Tian picked up a piece of pickled radish for Jiang Qingzhi and ate one himself. He felt so sour that his eyebrows were knotted and he couldn't help but have another piece.
"People live to experience. If you rush through life, you are not living. You are rushing. The last thing people need in life is rushing. Slow down... Come and learn how to live as a husband."
Li Tian chewed slowly, his face looking more and more tangled, and he couldn't help swallowing, "Oh! It's so sour!"
"You're such an impatient woman!" Jiang Qingzhi ate a piece of pickled radish. "Look at me... Damn! My teeth are falling out from the sour taste!"
"Hahahaha!"
There's nothing better than starting the day with a laugh.
Jiang Qingzhi was going to visit Zhu Laosi in the palace, "What should I give him?"
Li Tian was also preparing to start managing the household affairs... During her pregnancy and confinement, Fucheng took care of all the household affairs. After the confinement, Fucheng handed all the household affairs over to Li Fucha.
"Send some food!" said Li Tian.
"Food? That's not appropriate." Jiang Qingzhi shook his head habitually, thinking of a saying in later generations: It's okay to send gifts to someone's door, just don't send food.
If anything goes wrong with your diet, can you take responsibility?
When everything is trembling under the constraints of the law, the human touch, that is, the smell of fireworks, is gone.
"Uncle, have you eaten?"
"have eaten."
"Uncle, are you going out?"
"Yeah! Something. Have you eaten?"
"I ate it. This is... Look, it's a big pancake, pickled vegetables, and a piece of pickled meat... The pickled meat was cut too thick by the woman. It's full of fat. It's disgusting. What a spendthrift woman!"
"Tsk! My mouth is full of oil after taking a bite! It tastes salty and fragrant."
"Yes, Uncle really knows how to eat."
"hehe!"
Even in early winter, people in the alley still like to hold their bowls, stand or squat, and chat with their neighbors at their doorsteps.
If the food is good, they will deliberately show it to everyone, and even enthusiastically pick up a piece of fat with no trace of lean meat for you.
But there is no malice in all this, it is just a way of showing off, or what is called seeking recognition.
Very worldly.
Jiang Qingzhi walked out of the alley and Huang Jin was about to come in.
"Old Huang?"
"Emergency."
"What's the matter?"
"Some people are trying to hype up the situation, saying that this great victory was all thanks to you, Chief Weber, and Yan Song is just trying to take credit for it. This was a triumphant journey... Yan Song was rubbing the land all the way, and he was rubbing the sky high."
"What does that have to do with me?" Jiang Qingzhi said gloatingly.
Yan Shifan was a dishonest person and his father had to pay for his son's debt. Jiang Qingzhi was happy to see Yan Song in such a state of panic.
Huang Jin said: "Those people are clamoring, saying... not to welcome the victorious army."
"Fuck!"
(End of this chapter)
